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On growing up and not having a clue

When I was in teen age, I used to think that when I'm in my 20's I would have figured out my life. I thought I would have the answers for everything. I thought I would have found whatever it was I was looking for. I thought I would be really mature. I thought I would have been able to handle all my problems. All alone. I thought I would have been settled. I thought I would have nothing to worry about. I was wrong. 

When I was a freshman in college, I thought I would have it all sorted out when I'm 23. Of course, I was wrong. Again. I'm 24 now. The worry doesn't stop. The questions of 'What I should do?' or 'What the hell am I doing?' still pop up occasionally. And there are many many times I question my self again. I still make mistakes. I still make bad decisions, sometimes. 

I think the older we get, the more responsibility we have. And therefore, new questions come up - waiting for us to figure it out. Because life is a constant journey. We're on the road and we'll only stop when we die. I'm pretty sure when I'm 30 I'll have some new questions I can't answer.

The other day, I was really freaked out about something. I didn't know what to do.
So I did the most possible mature thing you can do when you're 24. I called my mom. 

18 comments:

  1. I think it never stops, it is what life is about and taken from my experience (kind of:)) so far the good thing about getting older is that we learn to take things with less buzz and tension, with more self-confidence and wisdom and I would say with more style;-) We choose less, but better. There must be something good about that, right?:) xx

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    1. agree. we know about the things we didn't before, and yes, handle the matters with more style - i like how you say it like that.

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  2. This is exactly how I feel. I always push 'having it all figured out' forward in my mind, away from the now. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever figure it out. And sometimes (quite often actually) I, too, call my mum.

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    1. moms the best, aren't they? sometimes i wonder how do they have all that wisdom of saying the things you need to hear at the right time.

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  3. I remember thinking the same thing - that I would know it all by now. Here I am in my thirties and I still don't know. But that's ok. I am a true believer that we never stop learning :)

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  4. :)
    i realize the same thing, over and over again. we will always feel like that young girls we started as. things and ideas and feelings will change and shift a bit, but still....we feel lost and unknowing at times, and even though our body grows older our mind stays young.

    mothers! we need to call them more often...

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  5. moms just know. :) i am with you on this. the more you age the most you know but the more you don't. i thought i could take on the world right after i graduated from college. i thought.. man i thought i was mature in college? nah.. i'm mature now. but i look back and realize how young and naive i was. i'm sure it'll always be like that. always looking back and realizing how much i didn't know...

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  6. Ohhh, I felt the SAME way! When I turned 29 I told my mom how frustrated I was that I expected to be married with 3 kids by now! But my mom said instead to reflect on the things I DID do with my life. Instead of 3 kids, I have 3 college degrees. But they still don't make me feel like I'm all grown up!! So weird! I will be 30 in 2 months and that might make me believe it though haha!

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  7. I have felt the same thing. Being an adult seems harder than my parent's made it look. I think we just have to remember it's ok to make mistakes and that even though we always will, we will always grow too.

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  8. Love this. I feel the same way...I think it's good to continually question life though. Helps us in moving forward and keeps us aware of ourselves.

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  9. I just loved this post! There's I could add! :)

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  10. *forgot the "nothing"... -> There's nothing I could add! :)

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  11. When I was a kid, I thought adulthood would help one figure it all out. Now that I am an adult, I realized how wrong I was. There are countless instances I don't know what the heck I am doing. And you're right, we can always run to our parents and older relatives for advice. Wonderful thoughts, Niken. ♡ :-)

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  12. Honestly the thought of being an adult scares me. A lot. But I'm glad we'll always have our parents and wiser relatives who have things a little more figured out to seek for advice :)

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  13. I guess calling your Mom is the best thing to do in such a situation. :) I always call my Dad when I don't know what to do. I don't feel grown up at all. And I really thought that I would have figured out everything by now. :)

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  14. Oh man. So glad it's not just me! I call my mom for eeeeeverything. Everything. Pretty sure I'll be doing that when I'm 50! haha. I'm 27 and have no idea what's going on.

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  15. This is SO ME! I've always done this, and now that I'm 30+, I still do it! I swear, I'll be a grown-up by the time I'm 40! :)

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  16. I was (and still am) the same as you! I got a little more clarity when I hit 30...at least as far as just knowing how to let some things/thoughts go. I still call my mother. That will never change, no matter how old I am.

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